March 23, 2015. I Had Conquer the one of My Biggest Fear - Hosting in front of the crowd.
It was the wedding of my cousin. We arrived in the morning and two days before their grand event. In the afternoon we visited them in their house and there was my aunt doing the emcee guide. Out of the blue, while I sat on the bed wanted to have some rest, she asked me if I could be the host in the reception.....silence....What?! never in my wildest dreams dreamt that I'll be hosting a wedding someday. I was shocked, speechless and stuttered while I tried to enumerate my excuses to refuse her request.
Unfortunately, my sister was there and heard the request of our aunt, so she also told our aunt that I was capable to do it because I had already an experience on it - BUT it was a school event!, it was a graduation! what can you expect on it? everything is formal, no joke to throw, no ad-libs and no enthusiasm needed for me to show.
However, I accepted the request of our aunt since she kept on telling me that there was a guide for me. The next thing I remember the paper was on my hand. I brought it everywhere I go. I practiced everywhere I stayed. As I run through the script, I also remembered the moments I've been into weddings. Before, I don't give a damn whoever was the host, all in my mind was I was in the reception because of the food, and that's all. I also remembered how I observed, critiqued, and made fun of the mistakes of the emcee.
No one likes to be discriminated in minds of anyone. I don't want to happen same things to me as what I did to any emcees I observed - though they don't know what I was doing. Mind me, I'm very conscious person and I am still having a problem with my confidence but I'm working on it and so I had to be good on the event. After all, it was me, the bride and groom on the spotlight. Plus, my family was there! I never performed in my entire life with serious matters in front of them, I always preferred that no family member to watched over me.
Therefore, I practiced a lot, I asked the help of my sister since she was the one who can give me the meanest comment that I ever heard, and that was what I needed in those moment. I noticed on the script that there were still blanks for me to filled in with words, lines, ad-libs and j.o.k.e.s. The problem was --> I'm not good at it.
The big day came, It was my first and final practice in the venue. I still don't know the name of the major principals. I gave it up to the Lord to guide me and help me impress the crowd.
Heart pounded so fast.
All eyes on me.
They Smiled.
They followed my instructions and cues.
and they clapped.
To end this, I can say that what I did their was unbelievably good......better.....but not my very best because I still believe that I still have a long time to live and that moment may come across on me again. However, according to my sister and cousins, I was able to deliver it with confidence and with sweet smiles all over face. I able to speak English fluently. I did ad-libs, transitions and jokes! whoah! Of course, these things I believed and boasted was also commended by my sister, she said she liked my diction and everything. One of the proof was one of my cousin wanted me to book as the emcee of her daughter's debut 5 years from now.
In that moment, I can really say to myself Good job! at last you have the guts and confidence! and I'm so proud of you. So Proud.
